Worrying gets you nowhere*

*this is quote from Trinity on her third book.

Yesterday, i was reading my 2002-2003 archives, my first years on blogging, when i was on 2nd & 3rd year of high school. My high school stories, and my memories keeps coming back.

During almost 7 years, there are lot things being going through on me. I always on something, my mother's sick, my ababil love stories, my hard time on college in NL,my wedding preparation.  I always on something that I always begging on God to keep me sane during the process. To keep assiting me during the process.
However, looking back all my situations, I get an conclusion : I always able to going through all my situations. I always receive it well. Not a happy ending, but the situations never get any worse.

Looking back to my 7 years ago, I have (maybe) a better and much spirit to break all the things back then, I have lot guts to get what I want, and maybe worry less than today. Of course, there are lot of improvement as well. I have more empathy today, not that ignorant. I am more worry, because i know my responsibily and aware with the consuquences. I am more calm when i got something that disturbs me, not like before.

Today, i have layers of worries. Worry of this, worry of that. Thinking this and thinking that. Sometimes i just want to mute my brain in order to keep my brains stops thinking my problem for a while. Stop worrying about future and start live my life. Ups and dows are coming together, make my brain can't stop working.

And i was just start thinking, is that become grown-up become this difficult, i feel like i want to crawl & crying on the blanket waiting for my mom coming and kiss my forehead. What a childiss thought, i said.

I am worrying i can't handle the situations, but sometimes maybe what i can do is just wait and see, and doing anything that has already become my responsibilities and my area.

The thought,  owh she can do that, why i can do that as well, also kills me. Baby, you cant always see neighbour's grass is grenner than you are. Dont you feel tired, baby?

But i always, keeping this to myself. Bulan, when your mother passed away and you were on NL, eventhough it was hard, you can take it well. When your mother's sick and you have to face Final Exam, you can take it well too. When your Dad planning to continue his life to the next stage and you got lot of situations going that may lead you to missjudgement, you can take it good. I remember, it was 7 months of worrying and lot of crying, but you can take it well.

This post is to remind me, you've been proof, Bulan. You always can get through for all your situations. So for now, i believe that you can take it good as well. You have all the spirits, you should worry less. You have to try, and i understands, same old same old, you better fails because you tries than fails because you never tries.

I know, you can do it. You always can do it. Thus, chin up and smile up. The problems may not fade away instantly, but there is no reason to give up easily. Give up is so not you.

Thank you my blog, thank you to reminds me to myself back then. My old-me .

this is my self-motivation post.

Rumah Kutu -almost final :D

So...

Rumah Kutu is almost real in few days. Planning to move on Saturday, hope everything will be okay :).
So far, ada beberapa masalah yang jadi concern di rumah kutu :
- Sinyal HP masih banyak blank spotnya. Mudah2an sih bisa diperbaiki dengan bberapa penguat
- Parkir! apalagi hari sabtu dan minggu huuh.. untung skrg udah bisa parkir di basement nya.
- Gas nya belum masuk :( hwaduuhh... Kompor di kitchen set cantik saya masih jadi pajangan berarti :D

Tapi ada beberapa plus nya juga ternyata Kalibata Residence ini :
- Restaurant2 di bawah ternyata membantu buat ibu istri  bekerja seperti saya :D yang menyenangkan sih ada D'Cost di bawah yang harganya super murah itu. Nasi putih aja cuman 100 boo...  Lumayan ga usah masak nasi *istri pemalas* - Sebenarnya sih pengen punya mesin cuci, tapi kata  tukang jualan elektronik di bawah, selain tempat buat naro mesin cucinya ga ada, katanya lebih boros krn harga air disana mahal banget. Hmmm.. Yah, laundry kiloan saya meminta bantuanmu *lagi* *eh ini plus to minus yak?
- Ga usah beli tv kabel lagi, udah disedian dari sana :) tinggal internetnya nanti dipikirkan deh... *Yang mikir sih suaminya saja*
- Karena Rumah Kutu ini sangat petite, daerah buat beres2nya juga ga banyak.. Hore!!! hihihihi

Oh ya, Berikut foto2 perkembangan terbaru dari Rumah Kutu. Can't wait. can't wait :D





Dapur Rumah Kutu, looking nice, eh? :D

 


Lemari + Meja rias dari kamar utama, itu sambil dari kaca keliatan ujung kepala kasur kita



Itu meja tv, disana kita berencana memakai wall paper biar agak artistik dikit :p


Kemarin sabtu kita juga sudah heboh belanja2 buat keperluan si rumah kutu, sampe kita juga niat belanja wall paper buat ditaro di kamar anak/belajar. Abisnya wall paper ini kita abis 250 ribu per roll (emang yang timbul sih, cuman menjret ajah) buat 1 dinding di tempat tidur dan tv aja abis 3 roll. Sementara di Informa kita dapat yang cuman 80 ribu, dan di belakangnya ada kayak tempelannya persis stiker gitu, jadi mestinya bisa yah kita pasang sendiri *pede* :D

Setelah belanja2 heboh yang bikin tabungan miris ituh *curhat* saya pun cuman bisa berdoa.

Rumah Kutu, kalau kamu nanti sudah saatnya disewain atau dijual, kamu bisa banyak menguntungkan kita yaaahhhh. Tabungan kita menipis nih gara2 kamu T-T. Amin....

Rumah Kutu - Updated

As in schedule, it should be done on 12/13 June, and I really hope that they can make it on time. *kalo gak bayar uang kos lagi booo*.

The kitchen is the first subject that pay our attention, since kitchen needs more time to build-up than others, so here's the lastest kitchen update. ( Basically, all has already set-up, except the gas , stove and sink )

And the others are really still in construction. What i love from my Rumah Kutu is the fact that we have big mirror ( this is so helpful to make the room more spacious). And now we still waiting for cupboards and bed room on main room, and once again, hope they can make it on timeee... :)


*eheehh that was us, back from our short trip to Bandung for our old friend, Nefry, wedding. :) and on Sunday we went to Ciawi, visited Deni's relative who sick for almost months. She is 94 years old. And we've informed that this morning she passes away. Deni said she was waiting for me to visiting her. Errr. X-)

Rumah Kutu - Kalibata Residence

Sejak serah terima rumah kutu, setiap weekend kita punya kebiasaan baru, yaitu menjenguk Rumah Kutu kita. Belum diapa2in sih, jadi ruangannya keliatan agak sedikit luas. Berharap banget, bulan depan kita sudah bisa pindah disana. I can't wait. Eventhough i dont know how to get office from Rumah Kutu. *big grin*

Sekarang kita juga seneng banget mengunjungi Ace hardware, Informa, electronic solution, hanya untuk melihat-lihat barang untuk mengisi Rumah Kutu. well, turns up we dreaming of our landed house which hopefully, larger than this very small appartment, thus we can decorate freely. Oh our dream house, wait for us yah. *which we dont know where yet* *tunggu uangnya yah*


So, here is it... Kalibata Residence aka Rumah Kutu :) I'll keep you update :)





Ini pemandangan rumah kutu secara keseluruhan dari pintu depan
sampai teras yang seuprit di belakang itu.
Sink itu merupakan calon sink kitchen set kita nanti






Si suami lagi liat pemandangan tower sebelah dari jendela calon kamar kita



pintu depan dan pintu kamar kerja

Suaminya gaya di dalam calon kamar utama kita.

Yak, istrinya juga deh gaya :D

 

hola, thursday!

So,... the big news that I waiting so long has been arrived!

No, not yet pregnant, teman2 semua :D *just in case ada yang bertanya, karena dengan semakin menggendutnya saya, pertanyaan itu selalu hadir minimal 3 x seminggu :D* *oh, itu tandanya saya harus olahraga yah ;D*

Tapi rumah kami, rumah 'kutu' kami, sudah resmi serah terima *hip2 hurray* *keploks2*

Maksud rumah kutu adalah, apartement kami di Kalibata Residence, kecil, cmn 30,5m2. Dua kamar tidur, dapur dan living room jadi satu, kamar mandi seiprit. Tp tetep Alhamdullilah, akhirnya pindah dari kos 2 kamar, ke tempat yang lebih besaran dan lebih privat :D.

And now I enjoy the progress of interior of my rumah kutu. Mudah2an berjalan sesuai rencana, bulan depan sudah bisa pindah kesana :)

so excited :D