Friday, March 28, 2003

Im Not A Lucky Girl
bukanya selalu gitu?

Sunday, March 23, 2003

ABOUT CHANGE

aku sebetulnya mau ngurusin web ku di geocities.com....tapi males banget, aku mau cerita dulu!
Kenapa sih manusia pake berubah? Dan entah kenapa perubahan pada teman2ku bikin aku sesak sendiri!
keadaan dulu yang sangat nyaman untukku, tiba2 udah gak ada!

Actually on one month i have lost 3 friends:
1. Friend who says will be my best friend, but at the least he like me.
2. Friend who can't keep with what he said before. He hurted me cause he lie to me. im verry dissapointing
3. My close friend who always play, hang out , and joke together says that he can't joke with me again cause he has GIRLFRIEND.
and her girlfriend is one of my close friend too.im very mad when he says like that.

ARCH..............
im so tired, i must take TOEFL preparation EVERYDAY. i know when i want something i must struggle and effort, bu im so tired , why i cant be winner?
why i always be losser? But, im NOT LOSSER !


Tadi aku ditraktir Pandih ke OEN buat ngrayain ultahnya ke 18,
yang aku bikin bingung, mila dan pandih yang bulan lalu masih couple yang serasi banget, tiba2 sekarang mereka udah punya 'gebetan' sendiri2
aku gak masalah sih......ngapain juga aku ngurusin? cuman sebegitu cepatnya kah?
sama kayak Dedi yang bilang kalo dia gak bakal jadian ama Ratih karena merasa bersalah ama Inta, tiba2 besoknya setelah bilang ama aku dia jadian.
bulan: kamu udah jadian?
dedy: (menangguk)
bulan: gimana sih kamu....katanya gak bakal jadian...?
dedy: duh bul sorry......bener sorry banget....
bulan: ngapain juga kamu minta maaf ama aku?
dedy: bener , aku bener2 gak enak.

perubahan yang lain lagi ama aku kali ya? sekarang aku agak nge-jauh dari Genda, aku sadar kalo aku dah gak bisa se-los dulu ama dia! aku bahkan gak bisa curhat ama dia. en aku bete banget setiap aku curhat ke temenku tentang dia, dia bakal bilang ke Genda, walo sebaliknya jg sih..:P
oh iya orang ketigayg aku bilang adalah coco

Tuesday, March 04, 2003

What im fell now

feel bored with anyhing
fell pressure with that condition
fell lazy
fell that anything i did is wrong
feel that i'll never be success
feel dissapointed with mysefl
feel anything is false
feel rthat i couldnt take my dreams
feel that this blog is boring...............

if i try to make the best for it, i still couldnt....................
to take the reality that my dreams.......
i want anything be better than now!


BULAN