Yes, im going to write it to share to my future me. As I know, the situations that I had this past few days, will gonna come back again in the futre, not exactly the same, but it will be similiar. I know.
As I spoke to myself, what if i just closed myself, forced to open until I came to this point of time. No suffering, maybe. But i dont think i can feel relieve like i got today. The feeling relieve that you know that youre doing the right thing to do, and it comes up well. Not finished yet, but at least, i can surely handle it.
And i had the nice talked with someone I respect so much between these 3 years, and it felt good. Thank you mbanya :)