Ketika mengetahui mantan pacar akan menikah...

Pagi tadi, ketika melihat status YM nya dia..

The day is 28th Desember

Secara spontan, langsung saja aku menanyakan dia..

"Is that your wedding day?"
"Yups," jawabnya singkat.

Ah.
Hari ini tiba juga. Pikir saya saat itu

Bukan... bukan berarti saya cemburu atau merasa tidak rela melepas dia menikah
Perasaan dia dengan dia sama sekali sudah tidak ada. Cerita (dan hubungan pertemanan) kami sudah berakhir ketika kami sepakat untuk berpisah. Dan tidak lama setelah itu, saya menemukan kekasih saya yang sekarang ini. Jadi, sama sekali sudah tidak ada cerita yang berkelanjutan setelah kami putus.

Tetapi yang saya rasakan sekarang, ini lebih terasa seperti perasaan 'your first time'

Mungkin bisa dibilang sama dengan perasaan, pertama kali punya pacar, punya kerja, punya gaji. Ya, hampir sama seperti itu.

Perasaan 'new experience' itulah yang buat saya masukkan dalam status FB saya. *yang kata Jihan, itu ga penting. Bagi saya penting, karena saya merasakan hal baru dalam hidup ini. Hihihihihi....*

Life is funny, indeed. Happy for him, tough.

Grown up and changes...

And every in the end of year, i always realized that changes is something that you can't resists..

and to remind me, some changes (and maybe some accomplishment) that I have in 2008 :

1. Now (and still) working in Feminagroup, still faces the same magazine, Pesona, but different collegas every 3 months XD *just imagine, alomost 1 year working here, i was worked with 4 different promotion staff, 2 different manager, and my PemRed just resigned and now we looking for one...* for another new collegas to work with...

2. I am not going aboard this year :(( ..... In a year, i only went to Jogja, Semarang, and Malang (this is trip with my own money :D) still Alhamdullilah, bisa jalan2... Hope next year, i am able to have aboard trip to (hopefully) Malaysia, Singapore, Hongkong and Bangkok. :D Since Indonesian government plans to delete fiskal fee if you have NPWP, i think the trip cost would be affordable than before...

3. I can do make-up by myself..... well, this is a great accomplishment for me. xD. And a good thing working in media is.... I dont have to buy make-up things again.... :D I just got it for free here :D hehehehhehehehehe.....

4. New friends from my collegas... Eventhough there is competition here, i still manage to have friends here. But still, i miss my friends... espesially miss upik dan jihan dan mas chauft.... :(( *Mas berly, udah lama ga jalan neehhhhhhhh... ayo taun baru taun baru.... *

5. The rest is still pretty same,... and oh, for next month, i will be a full employee (before just kinda like trainee employee :p) of my company. I just surprised that it's been a year after i back to Indonesia.

Eventhough, i miss Amsterdam so much, i am able to survive live in Jakarta.
Eventhough, sometimes i hate with all things in Jakarta, i still able to manage well here.

but still, i can not falling in love with Jakarta ...
(and this is something that still the same like one year ago)

Tag... Tag... Tag.....

Rules:

1. tag 5 friends
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tags on their profile that they have been tagged

Info

[x] I am shorter than 5'4.

[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.

[ ] I tan easily.

[x] I wish my hair was a different color.

[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

[ ] I have a tattoo.

[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.

[ ] I have/I've had braces.

[x] I wear glasses/contacts.

[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.

[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.

[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.

[ ] I have freckles.



Family/Home Life

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.

[ ] I've run away from home.

[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.

[ ] My biological parents are together.

[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.

[x] I want to have kids someday.

[ ] I've lost a child.



School/Work

[ ] I'm in school

[x] I have a job

[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.

[x] I almost always do/did my homework.

[x] I've missed a week or more of school.

[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.

[x] I've stolen something from my job.*pas di schoonmaak, suka ambil minuman :D

[ ] I've been fired.



Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.

[x] Disney movies still make me cry.

[ ] I've peed from laughing.

[ ] I've snorted while laughing.

[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.

[ ] I've glued my hand to something.

[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.



Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment

[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.

[ ] I've broken a bone.

[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.

[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.

[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.

[ ] I had a serious surgery.

[ ] I've had chicken pox.

[ x] I've had measles



Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day

[x] I've been on a plane.

[ ] I've been to Canada.

[ ] I've been to Mexico.

[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.

[ ] I've been to Japan.

[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[x] I've been to Europe.

[ ] I've been to Africa.



Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.

[ ] I've seen a shooting star.

[ ] I've wished on a shooting star

[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.

[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.

[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.

[x] I've been to a casino.

[ ] I've been skydiving.

[ ] I've gone skinny dipping

[x] I've played spin the bottle.

[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] I've crashed a car.

[ ] I've been skiing.

[x] I've been in a play.

[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.

[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.

[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.

[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.

[ ] I've played chicken.

[ ] I've played a prank on someone

[x] I've ridden in a taxi.

[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[x] I've eaten sushi. (today's lunch!)

[ ] I've been snowboarding.



Relationships

[ ] I'm single

[x] I'm in a relationship

[ ] I'm engaged.

[ ] I'm married.

[ ] I've gone on a blind date.

[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.

[x] I miss someone right now.

[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.

[ ] I've gotten divorced.

[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.

[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.

[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher

[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.

[ ] I have kissed a stranger.



Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.

[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.

[ ] I've snuck out of my house.

[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[x] I've cheated while playing a game.

[x] I've cheated on a test.

[x] I've run a red light.

[ ] I've been suspended from school.

[ ] I've witnessed a crime.

[ ] I've been in a fist fight

[ ] I've been arrested.



Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol

[ ] I regularly drink.

[ ] I've passed out from drinking.

[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.

[ ] I've smoked weed

[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.

[ ] I've eaten shrooms.

[ ] I've popped E.

[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.

[ ] I've done hard drugs.

[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.

[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.

[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.

[ ] I take anti-depressants.

[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.

[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.

[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.

[x] I've woken up crying.



Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.

[x] I hate funerals.

[x] I've seen someone dying.

[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.

[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.

[ ] I've planned my own suicide.

[ ] I've attempted suicide.

[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.



Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.

[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.

[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.

[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.

[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.

[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.

[x] I collect comic books

[ ] I own something from The Gap.

[x] I own something I got on e-bay.

[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.



Random

[ ] I can sing well.

[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.

[x] I open up to others easily.

[x] I watch the news.

[ ] I don't kill bugs.

[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.

[ ] I curse regularly.

[ ] I sing in the shower.

[ ] I am a morning person.

[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.

[x] I'm a snob about grammar.

[ ] I am a sports fanatic.

[x] I twirl my hair.

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[ ] I love being neat.

[ ] I love Spam

[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day

[x] I bake well.

[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue

[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.

[x] I like Martha Stewart.

[ ] I know how to shoot a gun

[x] I am in love with love

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I laugh at my own jokes.

[ ] I eat fast food weekly.

[ ] I believe in ghosts.

[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. * i USED to.... owh, i miss those time with 24/7 hours connection internet...

[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.

[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[ ] I am really ticklish.

[ ] I love white chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[x] I play video games.

[x] I'm good at remembering names.

[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.

[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. *bener banget neh :D*

Q's.......

copy paste dari punyanya Dita

What were you doing ten years ago?
13yo. I was in Banjarbaru, south kalimantan, just enter the first/second grade of junior high school. Hectic with organisations, red cross and theatre and also OSIS.

What are five things on your to-do list today?
A lot actually...

1. Send emails to clients
2. Make proposal package to C company
3. Send emails and more more emails...
4. Going home to Pamulang
5. Finishing K's company payment (done about 5 minutes ago!)

what an AE's life ! :p

Snack you enjoy?
Lays, chitos, any kind of chocolates, AW's waffle sundaes :D and lot more (lazy to mention that, tho)

5 Places you have lived?

1. Jakarta, born here, move away and back here after 13 years for working. Is that my destiny to live in this city? I hate this city so much before and now, i still can't falling in love with this city like i did with others city that i lived before. Weird, ya? But simply because in this city i can't get the simplicity that i like ( independence and easiness to travel a lot in this city alone by myself )
2. Banjarbaru, South Kalimantan. Been there for 4 years only. Childhood time.
3. Semarang, Central Java: been there for almost 5 years. SMP and SMA time.
4. Diemen, the Netherlands : Been and lived there for about 2 years. first and second grade college. For first 6 months, i live in college dorm, the famous kiezel and after that move to Arentkrijstraat 59 together with Noy (miss u so much noy!), Citra, Tanti, Bram and Jose and also sometimes mbak Sintha :D. I miss this place and the people, too!
5. Utrecht, the Netherlands : Lived here for 6 months, when i was doing my internship in Radio Netherlands. Everyday always playing with my dearest-princess Anne :)
6. Amstelveen, the Netherlands : I lived here in my last year college about 1 years and 3 months, lived in Uilenstede at 2 places : in Jihan's former room (i forgot the number)for 6 months and in uilenstede 10-52 for the rest before back to Indo at Nov 2007.

Thus, I am quite around so much in my 23 years and i love it, tho. :)


5 things you would do if you were a billionaire?

1. I will build a big big company.......
2. I will travelling around the world (esp to America and East Asian)
3. I will buy a nice house with complete households near Central City ( i mean, if in the future i live in Jakarta i will buy a house in Kuningan)
4. I will buy make a company which help the people around there by giving them job.( inspired by Cimory's yoghurt and milk factory)
5. I will buy anything that my dad's wants.


that's it. Back to worrkkkk

Macet-macet-macet

Ah, shut!

Macet banget parah banget. Dari Pamulang jam setengah 7, stuck di pondok cabe sampai setengah 8. Stuck lagi di lebak Bulus sampai jam 8. Masuk tol. Lewat buncit, stuck di imigrasi (deket kosan) terus naik busway. Sampai kantor jam setengah 10.

Hebat. Pamulang macetnya bener-bener hebat. :-( Itu pertigaan pondok cabe harusnya ada traffic light kali ya.... ga bisa gitu terus, parah banget :(

anyway, my sister-in-law punya blog sendiri sekarang, please check it on http://eatingstime.blogspot.com/

Yesterday..

was a special day, when i saw my bf using blangkon and javanesse uniform. When i first saw him, I immediately laugh out loud. It was weird saw his padang face and wear batik sarung and javaness kind of clothes.

was world-is-small day, turned out that the parents of wife of bro's bf is my dad's old bestfriend. And yesterday my dad had reuni with his old friends. Thus, yesterday was kumpulan of bapak2 mau pensiun angkatan 72. it was nice to see them and i also heard kind of " wah Bulan... udah gede yaahh dulu tuh km masih segini -sambil mengarahkan ke arah sekitar lututnya- " Ya iya lah om... sekarang udah gede Bulan :D

was a messed day. Rain was ruin my day.... First i was planned to go to salon about 3 PM and turns out it still raining. Waited untul 4, and found out that the salon that i went couldn't make any sanggul. Panic , I called my bf and decided to just get usual hair blow. Changing clothes in Salon and go find taxi to go to Bogor (it was so expensive, i have to pay 175 ribu for that -.- ) and It was late. My bf late in his only bro weeding party. Duh!. My dad also late, though. Traffic jam everywhere.

was a weird day. I saw my parents meet my bf's parents (never meet before,fyi) in wedding stage.
And hear what they said! " Oh, apa sekaliaan aja Bulannya dilamar ya.... Kapan2 deh main kesana kenalan,"

GUBRAK!.

It feels so wronnnggg..... not now, not now.....

Indonesian airlines are sucks......!

*mau ngeluarin unek2*

Kenapa aku bisa bilang Indonesian flights are sucks :

1. DELAY terus ....!!!!! dan terlalu sering. Hampir semua penerbangan isinya delay semua (mungkin pengecualiaan untuk GA, but how can I afford Garuda ?) Trus, kalau ngasih tau delay, orangnya bisa lempeng aja bilang gitu.

Pernah, aku lari-lari ngejar pesawat di Semarang, tiba2 saja satpam di depan dengan santainya bilang, " Mbak ga usah lari2, Mandala delay sejam."
Dueng!

Kemarin, baru aja aku terdampar di Surabaya selama 2 jam, dan ga ada pemberitahuaan yang jelas tentang kapan si pesawat bakal terbang.

2. Servis sama sekali tidak memuaskan
Masih in term of delay, mbak-mas itu kalau ditanya, "sampai jam berapa mas delaynya ?" pasti mereka yang gak bisa kasih jawaban yang pasti. Dan bener kata dika, mereka itu susah untuk berkata maaf. Just saying sorry and give clear explanation about when and how is seems so hard for them. Heran.

Dan kayaknya daripada terlatih untuk membuat pelayanan bagus untuk customer, mereka lebih terlatih untuk pura2 budeg dan lempeng denger keluhan para penumpang.

3. Masih soal delay, apa buat mereka lebih baik memberikan makanan untuk para penumpang yang telat daripada tepat waktu sesuai schedule penerbangannya?

4. Soal Toilet umum yang kotor! aku sih berprinsip, kebersihan suatu daerah/tempat bisa terlihat dari toilet di airport... Kalau toilet umum di airport udah kotor dan bau, berarti hampir semua toilet umum di tempat tersebut akan jadi seperti itu.

Sementara ini dulu. Duh, udah lama ga nulis blog, kok jadinya agak2 kaku2 gitu ya. :p

Rumah-rumah itu

Bermula dari ketika sedang melihat status kakak saya di facebook yang bilang kalau akhirnya dia sudah pasang internet, karena senang, saya langsung mengganti status di facebook menjadi " senang di rumah pamulang ada telkom speedy sekarang " . Kemudiaan saya tertegun.

Rumah pamulang.

Kemudiaan saya teringat pembicaraan di telfon dengan dika.

"Dimana kamu ?"
"Di rumah ayah "
" Hah, di rumah ayah ?" dan dika ketawa

Sebetulnya ga yakin aja kenapa dika ketawa :p tapi akhirnya sadar, karena kata 'rumah' that suppousedly hanya satu, sudah saya belah-belah jadi 3 :

Rumah pamulang, rumah ayah dan rumah semarang.
dan satu lagi kos2an.

Ketika bilang 'pulang' maknanya jadi banyak buat saya. Pulang ? pulang kemana ? kos, rumah pamulang atau rumah kuricang (ayah).

Bahkan supir kantor pun pernah jemput di 3 rumah saya. Pas jaman training, saya selalu bingung kalau tulis dijemput dimana atau diantar pulang kemana. Karena alamat rumahnya itu beda-beda.

Anyway, Meskipun punya 3 rumah berbeda, tetap saja saya pulang ke keluarga saya.

Home for me is my family.

why...

I can't help but wonder, how someone can replace someone who already commited in love for long time period to another one who she/he just met?

How could they decided that this new person is much better than someone who already with them for not-short period.

Does falling in love so that easy ?

Lebaran's weekend

Some pics... after long-long time not upload my current picture in Indonesia ;) * well, pardon me, i just fixed my (old) laptop.

Here we go.... Me and my bro



bonet, eggy (adit's fiancee), gita and me


fido,deo,kevin, kiki and me at Anyer

me, dad and bro

ANYER........ :D

rgrds,

Bulan

How do I define happiness ?

While i'm reading 'eat, pray love' from Elizabeth Gilbert, in one chapter she asked this question to herself, tries to define what is happiness to her. Meanwhile, in order to find the answer she traveled to Italy, India and Indonesia. Italy represents to food , pleasure, in India she seeks God and religion and in Indonesia, she tried to found out the balance between all those two. The magic I's, as she said.

This is a good book, even though, i still read third of it :p.

and back to question, how do I define happiness? and I still couldn't exactly answer that.

Family, best friends, traveling, lover, works, God may be the answers. But i have quite plenty experiences when i got in deep sadness because some of them. however, i conclude, those things could not guarantee my happiness.

My life is full with my own expectations which sometimes neglected myself to truly enjoy happiness itself.

or maybe just like Liz, I should first define what I really like to do before i can define happiness. and this another question comes out....

What I really wanna do... to make me happy.

this is what pop out in my mind:

1. traveling.

2. meet my dear best friends and have holiday together :)

3. holiday

4. holiday

well, it isn't good to think something like this in 2 days before lebaran’s holiday. :D

well, sudahlah. think about this later. :D

however, I really recommend this book. It’s entertaining your soul J

Ternyataa....

Ternyata....

Mengumpulkan teman2 belanda di jakarta lebih susah dari mengumpulkan teman belanda d i belanda....

:( miss you all

My firsts...

My firsts for :

1. THR (huehuehuehuehuehue......... happy)
2. Credit card ( in the day i got THR, BNI also approved my credit card :D)
3 Parcel gift from client ( I got 1 box of dates which is consists of 12 small boxes) Kurma doank seh, tapi noraknya dapet parcel kyk dpt apa aja :p

4. lebaran di Indonesia after 5 years away... Well, this means something,... i miss my mom so much, but i try to be happy with my current family, and I know God helps me on this.

Happy 10 days before idul fitri, temansss................ :)

bosan..

Suddenly get bored.

Gading vs Gajah

Gajah-gajah berantem
Gading retak di tengah-tengahnya.

nah,

saya ini gadingnya...

What a woman should do in public transport.....

Karena semakin hari aku melihat makin banyak wanita yang merasa seenaknya sendiri dan melupakan beberapa attitude yang harus(nya) dilakukan pada saat mereka berpergian dengan kendaraan umum seperti busway, bus, dll....

Dan kenapa wanita? Karena para pria sudah semakin (agak) banyak yang lebih peduli pada attitude ini, dengan cara mendahulukan wanita, memberi tempat duduk dll...

Here we go...

1. Kasih tempat duduk bagi ibu hamil, orang tua dan anak kecil...

Yes woman, saya tahu kalian adalah wanita yang (seharusnya) mendapat hak untuk duduk lebih banyak dari pria. Tapi, kalau misalnya mas/mbak penjaga pintu udah celingukan sambil bilang "Ibu hamil" and it happens all seats are occupied by women, jangan terus merasa tidak usah kasih tempat duduk.

Kasih tempat donk, bagaimanapun capeknya kita, Ibu hamil masih lebih memerlukan tempat duduk daripada kita.

2 Antri masuk sesuai giliran...

Jangan dorong-dorong.... Pasti bisa masuk kok asal bersabar sedikit.

3. Jangan manja karena kepenuhan!

Mbak, yang merasa sempit dan kepenuhan itu bukan mbak aja kok, sabar dikit ya... jangan ngomel2 mulu......

4. Ms RingRing, please turn off your phone for a while...

Gosip baru ga akan kelewat kok mbak :) Agak mengganggu deh, kalo telfon2an terus apalagi kalau pake suara keras.

5. Buat ibu2 bawa anak2nya di hari libur, tolong berwisata jakarta di buswaynya dimulai di atas jam 10 saja.

Karena saat itu busway lebih sepi, dan bagi pekerja (seperti saya) ga sebel ngeliat kalian menuh2in bus di saat saya mengejar2 jam 9 pagi.

6. Jangan buru2 banget ketika melihat kursi kosong, lalu nabrakin orang2 di sebelahnya.

Kalau jodoh sama kursi, si kursi ga kemana-mana kok :p

7. and please, please, please kasih tempat duduk ke orang-orang yang lebih berhak

well, yes, this repeating number 1, but the point why i created this post because this problem, i just cant stop wondering why it's so hard for them to give her seats to the one who more needed than them. Pregnant womant, mother with children, old people, sick people need those seats more than you thought. :)

*based on first-hand experiences

Sebuah Pertanyaan di Hari Ulang Tahun

Pertanyaan itu datang di tepat di hari ulang tahun, di sebuah sesi training.

" Bulan, apa yang kamu lakukan ulang tahun kamu setahun yang lalu? "
" Hm, makan2 dengan teman2..."
" Berapa orang ?
" 15 orangan
" Ada berapa laki2nya ?"
" 3 orang "
" Makan apa ?"
" Teppanyaki..."
" Siang atau Sore ?"
" Siang,......"

" Ok, kamu sudah berhasil mengingat semua dengan baik, padahal itu kejadiaan setahun yang lalu ya..... Cepat ga waktu berlalu ?"
" Sangat cepat... Sekarang semuanya sudah berbeda, padahal baru satu tahun berlalu. Disini aku bersama dengan teman2 yang berbeda "

" Kamu punya bayangan gak, apa yang akan kamu lakukan di hari ulang tahun kamu setahun lagi ? "

i can't answer.

i completely have no idea what would i do for next year. Would I still in same company, same country,same city like i stay urrently. Would it be in completely different place than here ?

i have no idea....

well, it's not good, i know. Being grown up and dont know what's her plan.
For sure, master degree in the future plan. :) and what else?

-.-

5 hours before my b'day

and still in office...

finally, bisa update dari komputer tetangga di kantor, setelah agak stress nunggu komputer sendiri yang sekarang suka aneh....

Masalahnya, setiap aku log in ke suatu website (contoh multiply) dia seakan2 lupa sama password yang udah aku masukin, jadi dia selalu bilang kalau aku belum log in setelah aku buka website itu. Jadinya ya gitu.... nyebelin... masukin password mulu, jadi ga bisa buka apa2 :( tapi anehnya nihh,... gara2 keanehan itu, di laptop aku jadi bisa buka website2 yang terlarang dibuka di kantor :p walo ya gitu, harus log in terus :p.

and 5 hours before my bday. Di kantor. haha, garing emang. Apalagi, besok harus training dan malamnya jadi penerima tamu di acara Be Our Cover nya MensHealth's. Well, ga protes sih, secara bisa lihat lelaki2 ganteng berbadan six packs :p.

and again, akhir2 ini selalu mimpi tentang Amsterdam. Kangen kali ya? banget, banget :(
Apalagi denger kalau bakal ada bachelorrete partnya Jihan. Aduh, miss you girlss....
Rasanya ya, untuk ketemuaan tuh lebih gampang di Amsterdam dibanding di Jakarta... Ada aja alasannya, macet, sibuk, dll....

it's also almost 6 months in Feminagroup. Well, waktu memang cepat berlalu ya :) there are lot things happens... and i learn a lot about everything...

well, so far my life is getting better and better. alhamdullilah :) *hehe, bisa bilang gini soalnya baru dapet konfirmasi order iklan masuk :p*

my bday wish? kamera dan laptop baru. maaauuuuuuuuuuuu

malam ini juga cuman di kos aja, aduh aku merindukan upik dan jihan yang akan mendatangiku malam2 :( aku mau kalian ada disini. :( :( :( :( :(

cukup ah, pulang dulu. Ga baik lama2 di kantor :p

daaaaa

Cerita di balik Hiatus

Dear all,

Ternyata sudah lama ya aku ga cerita2 or nulis2 lagi di blog.
Somehow, aku ngerasa terjebak di rutinitas kerjaan. Mood untuk nulis udah jauh berkurang dibanding dulu seiring dengan idealisme yang diusung dari Belanda mulai sering aku pertanyakan lagi.When you back to your country, your perspective will be changes. or at least, in this case for me. :)

Dalam 3 bulan ini, entah kenapa rambutku rontok banyak banget.... gak pernah aku rontok sebanyak ini, sampe2 kamar di kos isinya rambut semua. :p. Apa karena aku kembali ke negara tropis, jadi rambutku berusaha untuk beradaptasi dengan menipis ya?

anyway, sekarang lagi menikmati buku yg judulnya Rahasia Meede ttg perburuan harta karun VOC di Indonesia. Menarik banget..... sekalian belajar sejarah ttg Indonesia dan VOC, dan juga jadi oase di kepungan buku Indonesia yang masih bertema hampir serupa.

anyway, udah dulu ah.... ini juga nyuri2 waktu istirahat :)

fame, money and power

it's all that people need.

*hasil kesimpulan dari melihat iklan calon presiden ;)
** bagi pembaca di Belanda, coba search2 aja ya di youtube beberapa iklan calon presiden kita


ps: hehe, i'm back ;). setelah - tidak disengaja- hiatus beberapa saat :)

Ragunan, museum mandiri, tanah abang...

Ga nyambung kan? :p

Tapi itulah yang aku lakukan weekend2 kemarin...

Ragunan, kayak artis zoo loh :p tapi lebih ga teratur :D eh tapi, pas aku ke tempat yang baru, khusus untuk binatang primata, itu bagus dan bersih :) penataanya juga bagus dan menghibur. Menyenangkan juga :)

Museum mandiri. Ok, hold your breath.... harga tiket masuk museum itu 2000. yups, 2 ribu! dan dengan 2 ribu, apa yang bisa didapatkan? nothing...
Barang2 ga terawat, ga ada petunjuk jalan, ga ada pencahayaan yang bagus. Cuman emang, gedungnya sendiri bagus, tapi isinya ga menarik. Sayang banget... kalo aku liat kesannya cuman naro barang2 yang dianggap sudah layak dimuseumkan, seperti mesin fotokopi, komputer.... Tapi ya mbok jangan semua komputer dimasukin disana !!!!!!!!!!

tanah abang... barang2nya seh aku masih lebih suka mangga dua,... tapi footcourtnya keren loh :D. Dapet baju buat ke kantor...

" bagus baju lo, bul" kata seorang temen
" iya, beli di tanah abang...." kataku tanpa niat berbohong :D
" Salah lo bull...... mestinya lo jangan ngaku beli di tanah abang :)) "
" hehe... kan aku smart buyer...." :p

anyway, kalo emang rajin aja, pasti nemu kok yang bagus dan murah, 50an...
Modjo.... tertarik ? :p

2 minggu lalu, juga sempet ke taman mini.... ke museum iptek.... yah, konsepnya kayak museum NEMO seh... cuman di Nemo lebih terawat (again ;) )

ok ok... catch you later

ps: buat mbak Ayu... serius udah hamillllllll yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ehm, pakde tokcer :p hihihihihihi

One most reason why I miss Holland so much....

to meet my adorable little princess :)

ik mis je heel erg, prinsess... :)

How's life?

I'm okay,anyway. Quite hectic with my work, but i'm still having fun :)

Just like any other employee, I have my routine in my daily life. Wake up on 6.30 AM, take a bath, do some make up (yes, i'm make-uping now :)), take a breakfast when i have a time and off to work with busway which i still have to walk for 5 minutes.

When waiting bus, i will not stop wonder why private cars must use bus road, when they have their own road. In the beggining, i felt so angry with them. But now, i just getting used on it when i still can not tolerate them. I feel like they take my right to ride on that special road. I can not accepted that. My journey hour to work are various depends on the road's situation. When all smooth, i only take15 minutes, when it was heavy rainny, it will take one hour.

The thing that i would like to share to all my friends who still stay in Holland, the life after we back to Indonesia was not difficult as we thought. There are some differences, i guess, simple example is the limited time and facilities to access the internet. In the beggining, it was difficult, but then you getting used on it and use that time for another activity... reading, for me. I am a book worm now. Just like when i was highschool.

About the cultural shock etc... well just remember, you live in Indonesia longer than live in Holland. You will survive, you will getting used on it. You can be, like MTV's says, be local think global.

Fortunately, now i live in kos2an which make me independent with my own time. and also fortunately, i live in Jakarta, which quite individually. I know, some people (except my daddy and my bf) maybe gossiping about me and my decision. But i just don't care. When some people giving advices about what i should do in my life, i just smile and say thank you. I go with my life and my decisions.

Funny thing, after three weeks i havent meet my daddy, in one of phone conversation, i said to my father " Yah, kok kita belum ketemuan ya dalam 3 minggu ini,"
Ayah was kinda kagok when i split that, and reply , " Ok. mau makan dimana?" :)

Maybe i bit lucky, because when i back to Indo, I don't have to back to live with my daddy. And i am very lucky because my dad never ever push me. He just let me go and think that i am mature enough for that. I love you dad :)

there are things i like and i hate. There are lot things should i think carefully about my future. Sometimes, i stop and think, do I choose the right path? But when i am thinking i still 22 and young, i just dont give a heck on it. There are lot of oppurtinities in the front of me, and i am prepare myself for the best.

regards

Bulan.

*gubrak, aku kagok nulis pake bahasa inggris X(

Opera sabun...

Iya, kehidupan di Indonesia sekarang udah bak opera sabun....

Soeharto meninggal...
Pejabat ramai2 menghimbau untuk memaafkan...

Dibilang kalau ga ada soeharto, ga bakal ada tuh jalan tol..
(tapi apa somehow bapak itu lupa, kalau jalan tol yang punya juga mba titik, anaknya sendiri?)

Dibilang soeharto adalah sosok yang sayang anak-anaknya
(tentu saja, semua kekayaan negaranya diberikan kepada anak-anaknya)

Dibilang waktu jaman soeharto semuanya aman dan tentram
(untuk KKN nya ya Pak? kalo sekarang seh susah, pembagian ga rata sedikit, ntar ada yang protes, trus dia bs masuk penjara seh.)

Dibilang jangan dibicaraiin dulu dosa2nya, inget2 dulu kebaikannya
(memang bangsa Indonesia itu sangat pemaaf dan baik hati, meanwhile, mau nunggu sampai kapan seh Pak? nunggu 1000 harinya?)

Dibilang kalo nyebut soeharto itu diktator (seperti yang diberitakan media asing), dibilang dia adalah pengkhianat bangsanya sendiri
(Hiperbola sekali seh, kalau emang bangsa ini, bangsa demokrasi, ya hormatin juga donk pendapat dari sisi yang lain. Mungkin dengan itu kita jadi lebih banyak belajar)

Lalu, *eng ing eng* banjir besar di jakarta

Berita ttg Suharto langsung berkurang seketika..............

Bagi yang ketiban sial lagi di bandara Cengkareng dari Jumat sampai hari ini, kasian banget, ga ada jalan keluar, taxi pada mahal banget, masa anter antar terminal di cengkareng aja dia minta 50 ribu?? Kondisi cengkareng lumpuh, untuk bandara sekelas Internasional, tentu saja termasuk hal yang memalukan.
(padahal setiap mau keluar negri kita bayar sejuta buat fiskal, tapi tetep aja ga ada perubahan yang berarti dari cengkareng)

RI 1 kebanjiran!
(nah lo, nah lo Fauzi Bowo, abis itu dipanggil ga yah ;). Kan pas pemilu dia bilang, serahkan pada ahlinya. Nah gimana neh Pak Ahli?)

hehehe, sekian dulu sekilas info :)

oh ja, ik heb een baan :) tiap hari naik busway dari warung buncit ke kuningan, dan memaki2 sama mobil2 yang masuk ke jalur busway. Umpatan saya hanya satu

EH PAK, KALAU MAU NGERASAIN JALUR BUSWAY, YA NAIK BUSWAY DONKKK...
UDAH PUNYA MOBIL, UDAH PINTER DUNK MANA YANG BOLEH MANA YANG ENGGA

emosi liat ada mobil seoarang cowok yang disupirn dan lagi asyik baca komik.

einde

Kepercayaan di 'tubuh' Jakarta

Ada dua rasa yang hilang ketika saya kembali ke Jakarta; aman dan percaya.
Kedua hal itu adalah sangat saling bergantungan satu sama lain, rasa aman dimulai dengan kepercayaan.

Semuanya dimulai ketika saya dengan noraknya ingin bergaya ala bule, yaitu berjalan dengan memakai mp3.

Ketika saya melontarkan ide itu kepada kakak ipar saya, dia segera menghalangi rencana saya.

" Heh? nanti dijambret loh kamu," serunya yang dengan segera mendemotivasi niat saya itu.

Karena takut kualat, akhirnya saya mengurungkan kemewahan sederhana yang -ternyata- hanya bisa dinikmati di negara-negara maju dan aman. Agak kecewa memang, karena toh buat apa saya punya mp3 kalau saya tidak bisa pakai ketika saya berjalan kaki. Masa saya pakai di mobil? kan mobil sudah punya radio sendiri. Mau pakai di Mall? Aduh, kurang kerjaan banget ya?

Cerita yang lain, ketika saya sedang memasuki Zara yang sedang diskon besar-besaran itu,
saya heran, karena ternyata kamar pasnya selama diskon tidak boleh dipakai.
Tetapi yang saya lebih terkejut adalah tanda besar-besar yang bertulisan "NO REFUNDABLE" di dekat kasir.

Bayangkan ini, pembeli tidak diperbolehkan mencoba baju di kamar pas, DAN semua barang yang sudah dibeli tidak bisa ditukar atau dikembalikan dalam bentuk apapun. Ya ampun! rasanya semua hak yang semestinya didapatkan oleh seorang pembeli itu tidak ada sama sekali.Kita tidak berhak mencoba dan kita juga tidak berhak untuk menukar apabila barang itu tidak cocok oleh kita.

Tetapi tentu saja, antrian kasir di Zara tetaplah panjang. Artinya semua orang tidak peduli,
atau mungkin mereka punya banyak uang untuk dihamburkan. :p

Saya bertanya-tanya, apa yang menyebabkan si pemilik toko melakukan itu. Apakah dia tidak percaya dengan kejujuran para pembelinya atau ada alasan lain? Walau apapun itu, saya rasa dalam hal initidak ada pihak yang merasa dirugikan -kecuali saya- karena tetap banyak orang yang datang,

Pernah juga, saya mendapat pandangan khawatir dari saudara-saudara sepupu saya ketika saya melintasi jalan di daerah blok m dan melawai. Memang seh, saat itu malam hari dan terlihat banyak anak-anak muda yang terlihat gembel, duduk disekitar sana. Mereka heran karena saya tenang saja lewat jalan sana, padahal mereka terlihat sangat takut. Saya cuman bengong dengan ketakutan mereka. Saat itu, saya cuman percaya bahwa anak-anak muda itu tidak akan macam-macam dengan saya.

Juga perlakuan salah satu tante saya yang menyuruh saya cepat-cepat mengusir pengamen di depan rumah.
Kata tante saya, bisa saja pengamen itu sedang mengamati rumah kita, untuk melakukan niat buruknya.

Yang lucu lagi, anak-anak tante saya setiap bermain harus diikuti dengan seoran babysister karena ibunya takut anak-anak itu diculik. Er....

Curiga, curiga dan curiga. Rasanya kata-kata itu adalah hembusan nafas sehari-sehari di ibukota ini.
Memang curiga bukan hal yang buruk, tetapi kalau kebanyakan juga tidak baik.

Saya rasa rasa 'percaya' yang hilang itu erat kaitannya dengan perlakuan orang Indonesia sendiri yang tidak mendukung pertumbuhan rasa percaya ini. Contoh simplenya, saya agak susah percaya pada orang yang memakai sorban, berjangggut dan memakai peci adalah orang yang alim dan baik.

Bagaimana saya bisa percaya, kalau sering kali saya melihat, orang-orang berkostum tersebut, menaiki motor, membawa bendera afilasinya, tanpa helm dan ngebut dijalanan bersama kelompoknya di malam hari. Sangat mengganggu.

Apakah rasa alim dan sopan yang bisa saya dapatkan dari pemandangan itu?

Memang, saya tidak bisa memukul rata bahwa semua orang-orang tersebut jelek, cuman,
saya kehilangan rasa 'percaya' untuk menganggap bahwa image itu adalah image yang
selalu alim dan sopan.

Sama halnya, dengan janji-janji para pemimpin. Bukankah sekarang rakyat sedang mengalami sebuah krisis kepercayaan kepada pemerintah? Buktinya, saya tidak melihat figur 'pemimpin idaman' muncul dalam Pemilihan Presiden kali ini.

Krisis 'image' yang paling parah dan paling menyedihkan adalah image kita terhadap polisi Indonesia.
Jujur saja, apakah pernah kita merasa aman, nyaman, terlindungi ketika mobil kita bersisian dengan mobil polisi? Atau melihat kantor polisi?

Yang ada, mungkin, image polisi yang suka tiba-tiba menyegat kita, melanggar dan harus diberi 'uang diam' agar kita bisa kembali melanjutkan perjalanan. Kita pun menjajarkan orang yang -seharusnya- berprofesi mulia itu dengan preman pemalak jalan.

Apa yang salah dengan Jakarta? Apa yang salah dengan masyarakat kita?

Saya rasa, kalau kita bisa mulai menanamkan rasa percaya kepada lingkungan kita, negara kita,pemerintah kita, orang-orang disekitar kita, keadaan bisa jauh lebih baik. Tetapi juga harus dilaksanakan dengan disiplin dan tanggung jawab terhadap lingkungan dan diri sendiri. Saling berkenalan dan silahturahmi, bisa menmupuk kepercayaan seseorang terhadap lingkungannya.

Yang jadi masalah, di tengah kesibukan masyarakat dari pagi hingga malam, apakah mereka punyawaktu untuk bersilahturahmi dengan tetangga?

Tetapi memang tidak sesederhana itu, bahkan masalah ini terlalu kompleks, sudah mengakar, dan akan sangat sulit untuk diubah. Pertanyaan selanjutnya adalah inginkah kita selalu begini?

Wimar benar, Indonesia bukanlah negara untuk mereka yang menginginkan hidup damai dan tenang. Atau dalam kasus ini, Jakarta.

Tidak ada yang tidak berubah, kecuali perubahan itu sendiri...

Itu kata tante saya dulu ketika saya menangis menunggu mama di rumah sakit. Tante saya itu, sudah ditinggal suaminya 10 tahun, mempunyai 2 anak perempuan, hidupnya sudah keras dan mandiri.

Waktu itu kira2 umur saya 15 tahun, usia milestone buat saya, usia dimana dunia saya mulai berputar, mulai berubah. Waktu itu juga, saya berharap bahwa perubahan itu akan berhenti ketika saya sudah selesai SMA, atau saya percaya suatu saat perubahan2 ini akan berhenti.

Tetapi saya salah.

at least, sampai sekarang.

Tadi ketika jalan melewati rumah seseorang tetangga, saya cukup terkejut ketika melihat dia ada di kursi roda. Saya tahu, beliau sudah tua, tetapi begitu cepatkah waktu berlalu sehingga dia sekarang benar-benar sudah tidak berdaya untuk berjalan sendiri. Atau waktu saya menatap kerut2 di salah satu tante yang sudah menjadi saudara saya sendiri.

Bahkan dalam waktu 2 bulan saya di Pamulang, saya melihat sudah ada 2 rumah makan yang muncul di depan rumah saya. Cepatnya. Di sekelilingnya saya juga melihat beberapa rumah yang dijual, karena memang daerah banjir. Padahal dulu tidak separah itu.

Dulu, 15 tahun yang lalu, kalau sore, anak2 kecil pada main di depan rumah, rame. Gak tau kenapa, yang tinggal di BPI adalah orang2 di angkatan yang sama dengan bapak saya. Orang yang rata2 sekarang sudah mau pensiun, beraktivitas di Jakarta, pulang malam2, anak2nya satu persatu sudah mulai menikah. Sekarang, jalan di depan rumah itu kalau sore terasa sepi.
Seperti yang ayah saya bilang ketika saya sedang makan di GM Blok M, waktu itu kita baru saja selesai makan bersama ayah, istri ayah, kakak, istrinya dan pacar saya (well, dia agak2 korban pemaksaan seh :p hihi)

" Di restoran dulu ini, kamu kecil pernah dateng dan makan disini, ntar kamu kesini sama anak-anak kamu,"

katanya, mungkin dia agak terharu dengan komposisi yang ada sekarang. Yang mana saya cuman membalas,

" Iya, dan dari dulu aku ga terlalu doyan bakmi GM,"

Well, some change, same stay.

Wish you

New year?

Nonton X-Men di tv, dan bangunin orang2 rumah bilang met tahun baru,
lalu dengan gebleknya maen kembang api dan mercon di teras rumah, karena di luar hujan deras. :D

a simple like that, tapi yang pasti, baru tahun ini tahun baruan ama pacar :P

resolusi tahun baru? a better year :)

btw, ramalannya mama lauren serem2 banget deh, masa diramal bakal ada bencana merata di Indonesia :) terus artis bakal cerai makin banyak (ehm, ini seh ga usah diramal kali yah D)

ya sudah, karena online dari warnet, segini dulu :P
abis ini mau ke citos ;)