Ketika mengetahui mantan pacar akan menikah...

Pagi tadi, ketika melihat status YM nya dia..

The day is 28th Desember

Secara spontan, langsung saja aku menanyakan dia..

"Is that your wedding day?"
"Yups," jawabnya singkat.

Ah.
Hari ini tiba juga. Pikir saya saat itu

Bukan... bukan berarti saya cemburu atau merasa tidak rela melepas dia menikah
Perasaan dia dengan dia sama sekali sudah tidak ada. Cerita (dan hubungan pertemanan) kami sudah berakhir ketika kami sepakat untuk berpisah. Dan tidak lama setelah itu, saya menemukan kekasih saya yang sekarang ini. Jadi, sama sekali sudah tidak ada cerita yang berkelanjutan setelah kami putus.

Tetapi yang saya rasakan sekarang, ini lebih terasa seperti perasaan 'your first time'

Mungkin bisa dibilang sama dengan perasaan, pertama kali punya pacar, punya kerja, punya gaji. Ya, hampir sama seperti itu.

Perasaan 'new experience' itulah yang buat saya masukkan dalam status FB saya. *yang kata Jihan, itu ga penting. Bagi saya penting, karena saya merasakan hal baru dalam hidup ini. Hihihihihi....*

Life is funny, indeed. Happy for him, tough.

Grown up and changes...

And every in the end of year, i always realized that changes is something that you can't resists..

and to remind me, some changes (and maybe some accomplishment) that I have in 2008 :

1. Now (and still) working in Feminagroup, still faces the same magazine, Pesona, but different collegas every 3 months XD *just imagine, alomost 1 year working here, i was worked with 4 different promotion staff, 2 different manager, and my PemRed just resigned and now we looking for one...* for another new collegas to work with...

2. I am not going aboard this year :(( ..... In a year, i only went to Jogja, Semarang, and Malang (this is trip with my own money :D) still Alhamdullilah, bisa jalan2... Hope next year, i am able to have aboard trip to (hopefully) Malaysia, Singapore, Hongkong and Bangkok. :D Since Indonesian government plans to delete fiskal fee if you have NPWP, i think the trip cost would be affordable than before...

3. I can do make-up by myself..... well, this is a great accomplishment for me. xD. And a good thing working in media is.... I dont have to buy make-up things again.... :D I just got it for free here :D hehehehhehehehehe.....

4. New friends from my collegas... Eventhough there is competition here, i still manage to have friends here. But still, i miss my friends... espesially miss upik dan jihan dan mas chauft.... :(( *Mas berly, udah lama ga jalan neehhhhhhhh... ayo taun baru taun baru.... *

5. The rest is still pretty same,... and oh, for next month, i will be a full employee (before just kinda like trainee employee :p) of my company. I just surprised that it's been a year after i back to Indonesia.

Eventhough, i miss Amsterdam so much, i am able to survive live in Jakarta.
Eventhough, sometimes i hate with all things in Jakarta, i still able to manage well here.

but still, i can not falling in love with Jakarta ...
(and this is something that still the same like one year ago)

Tag... Tag... Tag.....

Rules:

1. tag 5 friends
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tags on their profile that they have been tagged

Info

[x] I am shorter than 5'4.

[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.

[ ] I tan easily.

[x] I wish my hair was a different color.

[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

[ ] I have a tattoo.

[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.

[ ] I have/I've had braces.

[x] I wear glasses/contacts.

[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.

[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.

[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.

[ ] I have freckles.



Family/Home Life

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.

[ ] I've run away from home.

[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.

[ ] My biological parents are together.

[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.

[x] I want to have kids someday.

[ ] I've lost a child.



School/Work

[ ] I'm in school

[x] I have a job

[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.

[x] I almost always do/did my homework.

[x] I've missed a week or more of school.

[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.

[x] I've stolen something from my job.*pas di schoonmaak, suka ambil minuman :D

[ ] I've been fired.



Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.

[x] Disney movies still make me cry.

[ ] I've peed from laughing.

[ ] I've snorted while laughing.

[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.

[ ] I've glued my hand to something.

[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.



Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment

[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.

[ ] I've broken a bone.

[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.

[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.

[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.

[ ] I had a serious surgery.

[ ] I've had chicken pox.

[ x] I've had measles



Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day

[x] I've been on a plane.

[ ] I've been to Canada.

[ ] I've been to Mexico.

[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.

[ ] I've been to Japan.

[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[x] I've been to Europe.

[ ] I've been to Africa.



Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.

[ ] I've seen a shooting star.

[ ] I've wished on a shooting star

[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.

[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.

[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.

[x] I've been to a casino.

[ ] I've been skydiving.

[ ] I've gone skinny dipping

[x] I've played spin the bottle.

[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] I've crashed a car.

[ ] I've been skiing.

[x] I've been in a play.

[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.

[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.

[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.

[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.

[ ] I've played chicken.

[ ] I've played a prank on someone

[x] I've ridden in a taxi.

[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[x] I've eaten sushi. (today's lunch!)

[ ] I've been snowboarding.



Relationships

[ ] I'm single

[x] I'm in a relationship

[ ] I'm engaged.

[ ] I'm married.

[ ] I've gone on a blind date.

[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.

[x] I miss someone right now.

[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.

[ ] I've gotten divorced.

[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.

[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.

[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher

[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.

[ ] I have kissed a stranger.



Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.

[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.

[ ] I've snuck out of my house.

[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[x] I've cheated while playing a game.

[x] I've cheated on a test.

[x] I've run a red light.

[ ] I've been suspended from school.

[ ] I've witnessed a crime.

[ ] I've been in a fist fight

[ ] I've been arrested.



Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol

[ ] I regularly drink.

[ ] I've passed out from drinking.

[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.

[ ] I've smoked weed

[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.

[ ] I've eaten shrooms.

[ ] I've popped E.

[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.

[ ] I've done hard drugs.

[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.

[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.

[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.

[ ] I take anti-depressants.

[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.

[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.

[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.

[x] I've woken up crying.



Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.

[x] I hate funerals.

[x] I've seen someone dying.

[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.

[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.

[ ] I've planned my own suicide.

[ ] I've attempted suicide.

[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.



Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.

[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.

[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.

[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.

[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.

[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.

[x] I collect comic books

[ ] I own something from The Gap.

[x] I own something I got on e-bay.

[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.



Random

[ ] I can sing well.

[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.

[x] I open up to others easily.

[x] I watch the news.

[ ] I don't kill bugs.

[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.

[ ] I curse regularly.

[ ] I sing in the shower.

[ ] I am a morning person.

[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.

[x] I'm a snob about grammar.

[ ] I am a sports fanatic.

[x] I twirl my hair.

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[ ] I love being neat.

[ ] I love Spam

[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day

[x] I bake well.

[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue

[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.

[x] I like Martha Stewart.

[ ] I know how to shoot a gun

[x] I am in love with love

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I laugh at my own jokes.

[ ] I eat fast food weekly.

[ ] I believe in ghosts.

[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. * i USED to.... owh, i miss those time with 24/7 hours connection internet...

[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.

[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[ ] I am really ticklish.

[ ] I love white chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[x] I play video games.

[x] I'm good at remembering names.

[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.

[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. *bener banget neh :D*